Lunch Conversations

Reason behind this post

Pure anger

I don't usually go off on a tangent on people or about people, it's almost rare

But today, at the lunch table, it was weird but my heart started to pound out of my chest, almost as if my heart wanted to strangle the kid who accidentally got me angry in the first place.

I was just furious!

My day was going so well too...

I woke up at a normal time, slept in, which is normal for me

Ate, drove to school, went to class assuming that the classes will go on as if time has stopped. The great thing about today was that, class was really fricken fast! One minuet I'm talking to my Spanish teacher about the German family, for whom I once baby sat their kids, the next thing I know, my next class is beginning

o.O

That got me in a pretty good mood, overall
I'm not usually in good moods either
It was one of those days where everything seemed ok

But then lunch came around and one conversation got me in the worst mood, and even now (writing this blog entry in the middle of 5th period) can still feel my heart bulge in and out from my chest with anger...

The reason why?

The utterance of my ex boyfriend's name....

It really set me off

Ok so sorry if I'm going to sound like a pussy little girl on the Internet who's just here to complain and whine or something, but you know what? This anger is just overwhelming that this utterance of his name got me extremely upset...at least thats what happened today

It was a horrible feeling
If I ever see him again, I would only be satisfied if I carried along a pocket knife
Not the intentions of killing, of course, but just to help ease the pain of seeing his face
His disgusting face....
Holding, gripping the weapon in my pocket would at least keep me standing there with a straight face

But I will not hold back my emotions or feelings of anger if he says something that really dissatisfied me...

And I'm sure that he would...

That's all I need to say for now