No More Of You

Well this is the end

The end of thinking about you so damn much

I'm tired of chasing a fantasy

I mean, as much as I like to fantasize about my life, this is the one thing I am putting a stop to

I knew that I was stupid for trying again

I really thought that if I kept hoping, something will happen

And I've hoped for a while

. . . 

See any posts about anything good?

No

Of course you don't

I know my last few posts have just been obsessions of my stupid fantasies

Those where just thoughts that needed to be brought out for the sake of stopping the round about thought

Either way, they were stupid

. . .

So this is why I'm stopping:

I feel as if I am being dragged on by a thread

I feel like you know of what I'm thinking of everyday and you fake liking me just to see me squirm like a worm in the hot summer sun

Maybe this is just in my head

I can't tell whats reality and whats in my head!

If I kept going, hoping for something to happen, then you would be winning at your sick game

And hell, I don't wanna lose to you

You just want to watch me kiss at your feet with nothing in return

Because that's how you are

Just a one sided kind of person

Jee, I hope that angle of yours is what you have always wanted:

Low, fake, and annoying as hell

Truly, that angle has lied to you to make you love that person

Broken friendships for just to make sure that they were yours

How can you take the flirting with other guys thing?

I hope you can live with that

Can you also live with the fact that this same person brags about EVERYTHING you two do?

Even the sexual side of the relationship?

This person says things I don't think you would be pleased with

I honestly don't believe half the shit I heard cause I don't think I can see you being like that

But, I did say the same thing about another person we both know

Hmm...

I think I'm derailing again

I guess what I'm trying to say is . . .

I'm dropping this pipe dream

for good

There are people out there way better than what I'm seeing today

 Collage is a beautiful thing to me

It's almost like starting over

Without so many shitty people surrounding me

So, goodbye unnecessary suffering

Hello solutions

You are welcome to stay

Make yourself at home

o^._.^o