I feel as if my life is slowing crumbling
and it happens to be around the Christmas times
Christmas is that special time to get together with your family, the people who love you more than anyone, for the first time in many working months and just be joyous together
At least, thats what a normal family does
Mine, on the other hand, can't even do this right
As always, every fucken detail of Christmas is planned and rushed at the last minuet,
The tree decorations
The gift shopping
The special dinners
Everything
Unplanned and ill thought of
But this year, it seems as if its been the worst so far
This might be because of other stressful and stressful factors such as finishing collage applications or social troubles or inner troubles such as depression
I just hope that I can cope with this year and maybe cheer myself up with peaceful thoughts about sewing or selling stuff on Etsy
Anything to escape my hell and back
So far I have felt some what better
But I think thats only cause I'm eating cookies in bed
What a fat ass I am
Of course this is only day 7 of my winter vacation
I'm sure (or hope) that this little sadness will blow over and everybody will get more serious about everything
I don't know....
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