There are moments in time where the smallest of things,
things that do nothing more but annoy,
grow and turn thoughts into complete anger
Then that anger, in the course of 2-5 minuets, boils and steams into pure hatred and dissatisfaction of life and everything that a cured in it
You think about childhood, growing up, being alone, and bullied
You think about how that made you feel way back when
Then you think about your pre-teens, back when you where trying to find yourself
You, even then, hated everything, but wore a mask with a big bright smile on your face
The only thing that mattered to you at the time was gaining love or companionship
Even though you felt conned every time someone said that they loved you or that you meant something to them
Then you think about today, or the recent past
The pain you suffered through from your own stupidity and weakness
You hate everyone who got in that path of unhappiness
Everyone who was involved
The people that deceived you from the very start
Then you hate yourself for believing people, trusting them, looking at them
The anger just from looking at a mere photo brings the Wrath back
It's tough to go through with it any longer
The only solution is to talk to someone, but who is there to talk to if you don't have trust in humanity?
All you can do is wait for the Wrath to go back to sleep and hope it doesn't come back again
Not for a long while at least
At times it will stay with your for days, weeks, sometimes months
When that happens, things become scary
It makes you think about the only solution to solve these troubles
The one way to escape from-
. . .
Then you just cry
Cry until the thoughts pass
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